Who do i go to live with,dar or julie?

ok i have my biolojical mom and my adoptive mom in my life. but ive come to know that i cant have them both because my adoptive mom doesnt like my bio mom. now my adoptive parents arent very nice to me and i kep ending up in a mental hospital. and i just recently found out what my adoptive parents think about me which isnt good. but i grew up with myy adoptive parents and i love all my dogs and cat that i have with my adoptive parents. but when iam with my bio mom i feel like iam at home and i have a family and someone that cares about me.. i really dont know what to do and its stressing me out.